I listened to Sonia Choquette talk about her grief and journey to wholeness following her divorce and
the loss of her father and brother six weeks apart in the same time. She talked about falling apart and
the subsequent issues of rebuilding here spirit and the impact it had on her as an intuitive gift.
This intimately influenced me because she is someone that I admire and love from afar and to know that
she experienced a similar event as I explained so much. It made me understand that I was not weak, as a
woman of faith to fall into a state of depression. When I listened to her heart and her words, it made me
understand that there are those of us that are called to great things and to get there, we may have to
suffer great loss and endure heartbreaking loss. Entering our own dark night of the soul. In a sense, as
she had done, I needed to go through the hell I went through to answer the call.
While I felt Sonia’s pain, I couldn’t help but think about the millions of people that had their own dark
nights. How many folks went through extreme suffering to move into all that they are; what they have
been spiritually groomed to be. I considered how my journey was so similar, but still so different. The
walk she was called to with only her resources simulated my own 2000+ mile cross country trek to an
unknown world that friends even said I was crazy to do. The difference was I had financial worries that
compounded my journey. I had the fortunate concerns of how I would pay my car note, eat, bills and
navigate day to day concerns that many other people going through this struggle undertake. I thought
about how it is never easy to navigate through so much loss, it is compounded by adding financial woes.
When you are amid such despair, the last thing on your mind is other people, although; when you take
your mind off your own problems and help someone else, answers show up. I was lead by spirit to leave
my home of 15+ years, all my friends and family and go to a place I had only been to when I was 9 years
old. I was in a place where I did not see anything improving in my life. My life was mundane. I was
divorced, my children were grown, and my job was just that, a job not an adventure. My soul needed a
change. My spirit spoke to me and said go. I tried to prepare, however, the more I attempted to
prepare, the more things did not work out. So, go I did.
When I arrived at my destination, I thought that because I was called there, that it would be easy, and
things would work out perfectly. I thought I would get a job, I would get my own place and life would be
grand again. This was not the case, I got a temporary job that was sporadic, and part time work. I
encountered racism that I had never experienced before in the work place and went through some mind
games that were beyond my comprehension. And if that weren’t enough, I got sicker than I have ever
been before. My blood pressure was at stroke level and I had a gallbladder attacked me. I questioned
God, asking him why he had brought me out here for me to die. When I received no answer, my spirit
would not allow me to give up. I wailed and cried, however, I stood firm in the face of despair. I had not
experienced such extreme poverty in the years since beginning my career and at one point wasn’t
handling it very well. I realized at this time that I had tied my existence to my finances and this was one
of the reasons that I had to come out here, to learn to listen to spirit and separate my self from my
finances. I had to realize that I was more than my money and the spirit was important in my life. I could
no longer be controlled by anything that wasn’t spiritually urgent. I had to experience this dark night of
the soul to emerge as a powerful, creative spiritual being in place to help others to navigate this world.
I, like Sonia had to take that walk and trust that the Universe truly has my back and learn the lessons to
receive the humility that was waiting for me in the end.
You are feeling like you are on top of the world. Everything seems to be working out for you. You have connected with your spiritual team and they have put you through an “awakening”.
You had no idea it was going to be like this. You heard from others about similar awakenings; however, they failed to mention that even as things are coming together with you in the spirit, shit looks crazy in the now now.
I cannot begin to express the shock that one feels when they realize that although they feel like they are riding in the clouds, they can’t see what is behind the clouds.
No one can prepare you for the rain, just as no one can prepare you for death. You listen to the weather man call for rain, but you never really know if he knows what he is talking about until you go outside and see it for yourself. The thing is we love people and they transition and no matter how prepared we think we are, the grief still finds its way to us.
Taking care of yourself and getting the healing that you need so you can begin to pay it forward by sharing your story of triumph and redemption with the world because there are so many people present that need the deliverance that your story will bring them.
It is selfish to keep something that would be so healing to other people in your situation or even on the other side of the situation. For example, I feel like I would be negligent in my purpose to not share how I got on the other side of divorce after a long term marriage, 20 years.
Simply because I know a lot of women that are scared to leave their long term mate for many reasons that mean nothing if you are not happy or you are getting abused. So I am seeing that sharing your story is important.
We are definitely not here in a vacuum. We are here to be of service to God/Source/Universe. The things that happened in your life including your awakening are just examples for others to follow or not. These are things to put on the table so that people can choose what they want. Also to get right and real, why keep the story hidden and still feel damaged by all of it, when you could leverage your mess to make a message.
Take some time out and develop your message. What are you supposed to leave in this world?
What were you put her to accomplish? How are you meant to help heal this planet? What types of help do you need? And what kind of help can you give?
These are just a few questions to ask yourself when you are in your awakening and you are being nudged to share your story.
Sharing your story is not only healing for others, its hella healing for you. It shows you who you are and what you are made of.
There are so many benefits to sharing your story. You will be able to help someone who may be in your shoes who thinks they are alone. You can help yourself because it feels good to be able to help others. It also can make you feel like you didn’t go through all the hell that you went through just for you.
God has a way of allowing you to do stupid things and use you as an example for others of what not to do. For God has a sense of humor.
When we are open to all God is and ready to step up and be what you are called to do, the story will naturally begin to spill. As if our mouths could be overfilled is how the story will ooze out.
Strangers will hear the story as you get online and in the stores. People will be put in your path to share the story with to encourage them.
Because you are healed, it will become just a story. When others hear it, it will affect them and they will look in disbelief that someone could go through all of what you endured and still be topside. So many things in our story were meant to destroy us; however, because of what we are made up and who we serve, we are still here.
The effects of our story can transcend time. There are many stories that have been passed down without ever having been written. Imagine how writing your story will help humanity even after your lifetime. Don’t be foolish to think that your story is so precious that people won’t deal with the same issues long after you have transitioned.
When I considered writing my story, I thought about the entire backlash that I could experience because as a culture, my people hide lots of things. They have typically hid things that make them look crazy. There is so much secrecy and sweeping things under the rug that I had a fear of sharing my story.
Then I got over it. I decided to take the plunge and share my mother story. A story that we would have been ashamed to share in another part of history became a number 1 bestseller. One of the reasons it became a bestseller is because many women shared the same story about relationships with their mothers. The mother daughter relationship is one of the most complicated situations on the planet. Coming from someone who is a daughter and a mother
of a daughter, I feel qualified to say that. The small fear I had to share the strained and sometimes nonexistent relationship I had with my mother over the years and the healing that we achieved prepared me to tell so many other stories.
I wasn’t really ready to deal with it; however, when I did I was grateful.
Now may not be the time for everyone, but when the time comes you will know. This article comes to encourage you to take the time to listen to spirit and hear when it is time to come out of the closet with your story
Connecting to spirit requires not taking yourself too seriously. When you are dealing in different realities, you should never be so rigid that you cannot connect.
I see that happens all too often. Especially when we are in a state of flux and not sure which end is up; we take an all too important approach to spirit.
Spirit wants us to consider that the joy in life is what allows to us to connect so easily. When we make it hard, there are issues.
What makes us think it is a job to connect to spirit? Why do we find ourselves going into meditation like we are going to work? Why do we think that spirit is outside of ourselves?
When did we begin to embody that there is a God, holy spirit or Universe outside of ourselves?
Even in the bible, it says, “Ye are Gods.”
Therefore, we should see ourselves as God, first instead of flesh.
So then what is the secret to knowing that spirit lives within each and every one of us?
Why then do we try to discover God, Source or the Universe? Where did we get the idea that we exist separate from God?
Why do we allow our minds to take us away from spirit within?
When we go within and realize that we are creators, not separate from God but enclosed within, we are one.
The awakening that is happening in the now is that of us awakening to know the power of the God, Source, and Universe. Understanding that the power to be rests in all of us not outside of us means accepting the all there is in our life; knowing that all we need is the power to be and everything else will fall in line.
This stops all the trying and the wanting to do “right”; instead of just being right here, right now.
Who told us that we had to do anything else except for be present right now? The most difficult thing to do at times is to move ourselves out of the way. Release all the doctrine that says you must do anything except for be one with spirit.
Take the time to know who you are and why you have incarnated here at this particular moment in time. Allow yourself to be utterly thankful for beginning to know yourself as spirit knows you.
This is not a new concept; however, it is newly accepted in this period of awakening.
To accept that you are the creator of your environment and your world is not a novel concept, it is fact. Truth is not as easily accepted as a lie. The sad fact is that so many people are content to live a lie than accept the truth. We see it every day and accept those lies as truth.
When does it end and how can we change this cycle for the next generation? As you read this piece and ponder the meaning of life; take some time and commune with the spirit within and allow yourself to be guided in the direction of li
Tammi is a #1 Best selling author, Spiritual teacher, Radical guide DNA Activations practitioner. ?She has a desire to assist the world to uplevel and embrace the gifts God has already given to them and know they are not alone. Her latest book, Walking Away is a powerful book about her choices for better or worse.